Sunday, November 26, 2006
reading your blog has become something i do frequently now. i dont know why too, but i find myself wanting to read so
i actually know what is going on. while reading, i realised that there was so much that happened that i didnt know of. for the very fact, i didnt know that you two were together,
happily in love together.
i dont blame you for feeling the way you feel, or at least how i think you feel.
right now, i really cant help but feeling like someone ELSE. the one that doesnt/shouldnt belong. i dont wanna come in between, i dont want to spoil what you have, i dont want you to be unhappy. that was never my intention at all.
and the worse part? i dont know what to do/say/think to console myself or at least
bring myself to a better state of mind so i can at least do my work.
again, it doesnt help that i have one million and one things to do, and the work on my table is scaring the shit outta me. since when did i have so much to do?! unknowingly, ive thrown myself into a mess again. messy accounts, programme lineup, book sale, projects, events,
academics.
still, i am going to and will do it all.
as im typing, im smiling. thinking of the memories we've shared is a blessing in itself. now tho, there's someone else. you cant have the best of both worlds i know. you chose her, and i respect that. Cheers to the both of you. : )) treat her well or i'll box you.
all i wanna do, is have some fun. i've got a feeling, im not the only one.and after sleeping for about 3 hours today, its time to wake up and get back to work.
thank goodness i love what im doing, else i'll be cursing and swearing. hah !
oh oh oh! and family was nice enough today to drive all the way to Geylang for frog porridge and durians! now i just crave for some icecream. they should invent orange chocolate icecream. : ))
Merser
